Bravery, foolishness, cowardice

I told Rob that I think Zen is being a fool to get married so quickly. I have changed my mind.

I am glad Zen has someone. Very. Just as I am glad Rob does. Lonely is a hard road to travel, one that I know very well. I said Zen was a fool to get married so quickly because I worry that he will be hurt, that Amanda will hurt him. I worried the same way about Rob and Melissa when they married.

However, beyond being their mom, I don't have the right to say anything about them being foolish in this regard. I have never been brave enough to take the same risk with anyone. I have always run the other way as quickly as possible. The last few years, I'm thinking that maybe it's better to be foolish, run the risk of being hurt, than to be a coward, alone forever. So I'm glad they were both brave and foolish.

I have my writing to keep me company and, most of the time, it's enough. But I know what I'm missing out on. I'm real clear on that.

It will be good if I have another chance and, having the chance, have the balls to go through with it.