Arol

In other words, Arol, fuck off.

I should have said that years ago. But I was intimidated and afraid.

Arol was not some devil woman, as some ex-Zendiks have put about. She was just a thoroughly miserable woman. She didn't want to be there. No, that's not it. I think she believed in what was going on, the philosophy, and she loved the music and the writing, all that. But she didn't like the people.

Speaking as one of the people, can't blame her. But it made her hard to live with. I told her once that she and Kare were the ones I had the most difficulty dealing with. She said it was interesting I felt that way because they were the ones who could help me the most. I nodded.

What I should have said is yes, but you two are so fucking mean. That's my real problem with you. You can't give input without making people feel like shit.

Okay, enough Farm introspection for tonight. Later.