Zendik Farm - 2

I dreamed about Bugzy, a guy I knew on the Farm. I always think of the Farm in caps. :) I do that once in a while, dream about the Farm or someone I knew from back them. Not too bad. Don't remember much about it, because I didn't write it down.

I should start writing them again, not in another folder or on paper, because I won't keep up with it. But I bet if I write them here, I'll keep up with it. I think I'll do that.

I used to dream about the Farm all the time, especially in the first few years after I left. And for years afterward. I kept dreaming that I was back there. Can't tell you how many times I dreamed that. Very unpleasant. No matter how much I believe in most of their tenets, I don't want to be there. It's not good, having yourself under constant surveillance by everyone around you. Not that I was so special, it was the same for everyone. I just don't want to live like that anymore.