This is a constant throughout my life. Dreaming that I've killed someone and I'm so very, very afraid of being caught, of someone finding out. I wake up and I'm still afraid, still freaked out. I have to lie there for a moment, search my reality, "wait a minute, did I kill someone?" Always a huge relief when I realize that no, I haven't.
What is this?
Yes, I feel guilty, very, about the animals I've caused to die. Makes me want to put my head through a wall. Is that it? Or does it stand for something more amorphous, more shadowy. Hey, I know, I'll google the meaning for murder in a dream. Wow, what a cool idea, Jubalation! Why don't you go do that right now!
Okay. I will.
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