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I miss you so much, Riley. I was in the living room, closing things down for the night and I looked around for you. Cause you were supposed to be there. You aren't supposed to be dead. I am so sorry. I should have found a way. I hate myself for that. Until I die, I will remember holding you as you passed from this world. I used to think I didn't feel things, that there was something missing from me. It's not that I don't feel things. I feel them as much as anyone else. I just disconnect so I don't have to because it hurts too fucking much. I miss you so much.