Getting Older

In some ways, it's good. In a lot of ways, it's not only bad, it sucks. And it kind of freaks me out. I hate, loathe, despise the thought of mortality. Death isn't like summer vacation and you'll be coming back in the fall. Well, maybe it is, I don't know. And that's what kills me, not knowing. I would like to believe that we go on. I need to believe it. Life is hard without that belief.