Obsession

It's a good thing I'm not a drinker or a druggie. I am so obsessive-compulsive about the things I chose to hook into -- I'd have been dead years ago. I guess it's a good thing it was food I chose to obsess about for so long. Gave me a little more time to get my shit together.

For the first time in my life, I am getting control. Not that I don't have occasional lapses, but not many and not big. I did manage to get my weight down to where I wanted it, back on the Farm, but I don't really count that, because I didn't do it by myself and it didn't stick.

This time I'm doing it on my own and it will stick. It's changing lifestyle (crap, what a cliche, hate that cliches are so often true) that's working, not dieting.